Saturday, September 1, 2012

...I Remember...

Hello...
It's been so long since I last update my little blog here...
My August is being a son of bitch...
I wish my following days will be nice to me...
Your deceased were such a sudden and sad case...

To be honest I still can't really accept that you're gone...
Everyday I woke up, I have to tell myself that you're gone...
Convincing myself that this person is no longer exist in this world...
It's hard...
But yea I'm getting better everyday...
School, assignments, party, basketball, swimming, families and friends, they all keep me living...
I really appreciate that...
And deep in my heart, I'm still angry of you, for not listening to me...
Let me found out that you're cheating on me while giving me hope...
But I've done all I can do for you, and you're no longer here...
So I've wear back the ring that you gave me, as I promised, because you're forgiven...

If possible, I wish I could write our stories into a novel, or make it into a short film or movies...
Because we've been through so many...So many...So so many...
Yea...IF possible...LOL! Funny heh? 
People might look you as a bad guy, but I know you're a kind-hearted person...
This is one of the reasons why I will stick with you for 6 years...

There's no regrets for being your girlfriend for 6 years...
Although we already broke up for 6 months, we still keep in touch...
Yea...True that when the time we broke up I did say I've wasted my entire 6 years of teenage life on you...
That's because I'm angry...Heh...
Now everything is over...
Yea yea I'm getting back up...
I have to be tough, although sometimes it's hard...
Yes I'm still me, the bubbly happy girl which you can always see me with a smile on my face!
Don't worry about me ok?
Just give me a little more time I'll be all right...Yes I mean all...
Now only 'half right'...Heh... :)

And soon after you've left, I found out this song...
A Korean song that represent my feelings, after you've gone...
I wish I can sing it...
Ok I'm on my way learning how to sing the chorus...
Hope you get it from me, in Heaven...R.I.P


Here's the English lyrics:
I don’t know why I still remember,
All our memories that were like a living hell.
I’ll remember our past. You were playing around with me.
Thanks to you, everything’s changed for me.
The side of me that used to be able to laugh, doesn’t exist anymore.
Love is a joke to me now; my crushed heart.
I tried everything to forget you,
I became better before anyone else.
I hoped that you would regret it all when you saw me.
Yeah, all of my music that you ignored,
Will be blasting on the streets of Seoul. (Rock on)
Our old habits are holding onto us,
You’re often unconsciously falling into a nightmare-like world.
But still, because I was in love with you,
I won’t ever forget you. Yes, I remember.
Even if I close my eyes, I still see us.
There’s still a light there.
I’ll deeply retain the times we had together.
Even if pain comes over time,
The promise I made for the rest of my life,
I won’t ever forget that moment until the end.
I Remember
I Don’t Know What You’ve Done to me
Just Like That
Forget it. I won’t deal with love. I came back, yeah.
Throw it all away. I don’t need it anymore.
Now, I can finally sleep without you around.
There’s a spotlight lit in your empty space.
I don’t believe in the significance of the dream I dreamed.
I’m going crazy in the reality of being thrown away.
I’m hot stuff. People like you want to go out with you,
The scars you get from pleading; I’ll live my life in a corrupt way.
Even long after our farewell,
In the end, all I had left was the promise we made, which doesn’t exist now.
That was often the reason to why I’m where I am now.
I let that day slip through my hands,
Don’t ever look at me again.
I’ll believe that you feel the same way I do.
I won’t ever forget. Yes, I remember.
Even if I close my eyes, I still see us.
There’s still a light there.
I’ll deeply retain the times we had together.
Even if pain comes over time,
The promise I made for the rest of my life,
I won’t ever forget that moment until the end.
I Remember
Making a promise together,
Forever (I’ll keep it here)
Even if I have to walk this road alone, temporarily,
I’ll show you everything I’ve got.
Even if I close my eyes, I still see us.
There’s still a light there.
I’ll deeply retain the times we had together.
Even if pain comes over time,
The promise I made for the rest of my life,
I won’t ever forget that moment until the end.
I Remember