...刘力杨...礼物...
Monday, February 8, 2010 ♥.
终于在今天划上句点
一整夜翻开过去画面
快想不起我们为何会诀别
只看到那双你送的鞋
走一步又一步 我才发现转了个圈
走了好几年 又回到原点
你送的礼物会不会太特别
毫不避讳那不安的传言
但渐行渐远 习惯到没感觉
难道你早想让我走远
你送的礼物在此刻好体贴
陪我回忆把过往走一遍
穿了这些年 难免会有污点
就像每段爱 总会有终点
世上最残酷的 恐怕是时间
困住人 一切却还向前
干涸的眼再挤不出一点咸
爱到如此可悲的境界
走一步又一步 却跟不上你的脚步
你满意了 为什么我却只想要哭
你送的礼物会不会太特别
毫不避讳那不安的传言
但渐行渐远 习惯到没感觉
难道你早想让我走远
你送的礼物在此刻好体贴
陪我回忆把过往走一遍
穿了这些年 难免会有污点
就像每段爱 总会有终点
你说做自己吧 我们都做回自己 哦...
不要再为爱受委屈
你送的礼物 原来是一场劫
终于分别 宿命一样准确
可笑到想要 你赔给我时间
爱情有时廉价得可怜
光着脚我一路奔跑 鲜血泪水一路狂飙
收起我的骄傲 承认曾经备受煎熬
鞋上那记号 只有你能明瞭
过了这一夜 我就全忘掉
left;7:25 PM
...Doesn't Mean Anything...Alicia Keys...
♥.
Used to dream of being a millionaire, without a care
But if I’m seeing my dreams, and you aren’t there
’cause it’s over
that just wont be fair
darling,
rather be a poor woman living on the street,
no food to eat,
cause i don't want no body if i have to cry.
cause it's over
when you said goodbye!
all at once...
i had it all
but
it doesn’t mean anything
now that you’re gone
from above seems i had it all
but it doesn’t mean anything
since you’re gone
now i see myself through different eyes,
it's no surprise!
being alone will make you realize
when it's over!
all in love is fair I shoulda been there, I shoulda been there, I shoulda shoulda.
all at once...
i had it all
but
it doesn’t mean anything
now that you’re gone
from above seems i had it all
but it doesn’t mean anything
since you’re gone
I know I pushed you away
What can I do that would save our love
Take these material things
They don’t mean nothing
Its you that I want
All at once...
I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Now that you’re gone
From above,
Seems I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Since you’re gone
All at once...
I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Now that you’re gone
From above,
Seems I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Since you’re gone
left;7:10 PM
...Sometimes...
♥.
Speak is usually easier than do...
When you have to do something, you really need courage to make a decision...
Even though your heart doesn't ask you to do so, but your mind think so...
Sometimes really hope that I'm feelingless...
So that I don't have to think, feel, and make any decision...
Can I don't know everything and answer every questions with 'don't know'...
It took me 4 hours to finish my previous post...
But it took 4 years to make it happen...
When you realize everything you've worked out so hard doesn't mean anything...
Your only reward is only an empty heart...
What can I do?
Clueless . Helpless
left;6:50 PM
...Just That Little...
♥.
这是一篇爱情故事：（给喜欢阅读小说的朋友们）
男人和女人都是篮球爱好者，从小学就认识，而且还是不打不相识的那种。男人是个穷人家，是个公认的坏学生；女人家境比男人好，是个生性活泼好动的女生。因为某些原因，男人爱上了女人。可是女人犹豫是否该接受男人的追求？在男人百般追问下，女人终于受不了接受了男人的追求。就在女人考完PMR那一年的12月28日，男人和女人相恋了。
女人记得，刚开始时是多么的辛苦。担心会被父母发现的女人，整天鬼鬼祟祟的在房里跟男人通电话，连在学校都要用传纸条来联系，因为女人的姐姐是位老师。女人刚开始都不敢承认自己跟男人在一起，因为男人的品行与脾气都是在大家心里列入了黑名单的。他们的恋情，也是不被祝福的。因为女人的朋友都不喜欢男人。农历新年时，女人趁家里还很热闹，偷偷跑出了家跟男人在约好的地方见面，然后用走的，到男人朋友家去赌博。在一起的第一个情人节，女人也得到了很惊喜的礼物。
就在女人和男人在一起满三个月的时候，一个臭老头按了女人家的门铃，进了女人的家。女人当时不知道臭老头是谁，可是臭老头却知道女人住在那间家里叫什么名字。一进门，臭老头就问女人是不是跟男人在一起？女人的妈妈觉得好奇，到客厅来看看。就在这时候，女人才发现这臭老头原来是男人乾妈的神经病老公。可是臭老头却没有说称自己的妻子叫老婆，而是用老女人来称呼自己的妻子。臭老头认为男人在勾引自己的老婆，在女人的家人面前撒野，说尽了男人的坏话。说男人骗老女人的钱种种难听的话！就在这时，女人的爸爸也刚回到家。女人的爸爸见了臭老头，点点了头，似乎是在生意上见过面。女人的爸听见了臭老头说了这番话，生气极了！而且在没有查清前因后果前，就判了男人死刑。这时候，女人与男人的感情出现了障碍。
男人和女人考上摩托那年，约好了一起骑摩托去上学。所谓的一起，就是约在一个地方，大家见面了再一起去上学。久而久之，男人觉得两辆摩托太麻烦了，所以就建议把摩托泊在男人朋友的家，再一起去上学，女人也答应了。但很不幸的，女人的摩托被妈妈发现。那天回到家，女人被妈妈质问，女人只好一五一十地说出实话。当然，女人的妈妈不允许她那么做。可是固执的女人不听，妈妈也只好束手就擒，让男人到女人家载她上学。记得有一次女人经期肚子痛得不得了，男人知道了，逃课带女人回家（因为逃课对男人来说其实没什么大不了）。男人和女人不在意别人的目光，女人也不管家人的反对，一意孤行的继续跟男人在一起。
日子久了，男人和女人时常会因为一些琐碎事吵得一发不可收拾，也因为男人的脾气很坏，爱吃醋，不让女人参别的男生朋友，还曾闹得要分手了。可是彼此心里都知道那只是气话。就在哪一天，女人在学校听见了传闻，说男人正在追求另一个女生。女人当时很无助，也很伤心。放学时跑到了一间没人的课室，偷偷哭泣。男人找不到女人，开始担心。女人被男人的朋友发现自己一个人在课室哭泣，便告诉男人。男人便跑到课室来，问女人为何哭泣？女人一直不肯回答，可是最后还是矜持不住告诉了男人。男人澄清了自己只是在跟朋友赌气，并不是真的要追求那个女生。女人不信，一直哭泣。可是男人不忍心，一手抓住女人，把女人推入自己的怀里。女人试着推开男人，可是最终女人还是屈服在男人的臂弯里。记得一周年纪念那年，男人送了女人可爱的娃娃，巧克力，纸折星星等的礼物。女人开心极了，因为女人是第一次收到爱人送的礼物。渐渐的，男人不想再让女人伤心，把自己的坏脾气和坏习惯，慢慢的改掉了。
在一起久了，感情也稳定多了，也是考车的时候了。女人由于不会驾手操车，男人向朋友借了一辆手操车，让女人练习，教女人如何驾手操车。这时候，男人和女人一起很顺利的考到了车牌。由于女人家境比较好，就可以有车载男人，不用男人再载女人。女人觉得是时候交换司机的角色了。
就在女人跟男人在一起的第二年里，男人和女人读完了中学，很衰的女人，SPM成绩竟在女人生日那天出炉。女人很伤心，因为得不到想要的成绩。以为可以开心过生日的女人，怎知道女人的朋友全都因为成绩不好而不想出来。只有男人愿意陪在女人身边，当晚，男人送了女人一枚戒指，女人，感动得哭了。女人18岁的生日，就这样过了。
男人一直守候在女人身边，就连毕业后工作的地方也只需要越过一条街，就能见到对方。男人早上载女人一起去工作，傍晚载女人一起下班。直到女人要到外坡升学时，事情又开始变化了。
眼看离别的日期越来越近，女人一直安慰自己，也安慰男人，说一定会有机会见面，说好一定要彼此信任，也誓言会等对方。女人离开那天，把自己每一天记录心情的日记送给了男人。刚开始，女人在外坡读书的日子很难过。女人人生地不熟，很想有男人在身边，也很想家。可是女人知道这是不可能的，因为男人得在家乡工作挣钱，女人则应该学着独立坚强。在修读大学先修班的那些日子，女人认识了朋友，也幸好有朋友，女人的日子变得比较轻松。慢慢的，女人习惯了在外地读书的日子，而男人，还是原来的他。有时间就陪女人传传简讯，打打电话。女人每个月也会回家乡见男人一次，吵架也少了，也许这就是小别胜新婚的原理。
记得一次回乡时，男人因为工作事故发生了不幸的事。那次回家，女人没能见到男人，觉得很担心也很伤心。直到女人得回到外坡读书的那一刻，男人才出现。女人哭了，因为最后一秒才见到对方，却要离开了。女人生气，不准男人再做那份工，要男人找份能学些手艺的工来做。男人也很听话，就到车厂当了学徒。因为男人誓言要女人当自己的妻子，要给女人幸福快乐的日子。
虽然说吵架少了，可是偶尔还是会吵吵闹闹。有哪对情侣从未吵过架呢？还记得第三年的情人节，女人是多么寂寞的一个人呆在房间里过。女人责怪男人没能陪自己的女朋友过情人节，女人告诉男人有男朋友等于没男朋友。就这样，又吵起来了，吵得一把鼻涕一把泪，结果女人还是得自己一个人过情人节。日子一天一天地过，男人突然说要到外坡来工作，女人也无异言，并支持说出来看看外面的世界也好。就这样，男人与女人所在的地方又靠近了。每个周末，女人都会向姐姐借车，到男人的地方去载他然后出去约会。
光阴似箭，女人也快从大学先修班毕业了。毕业典礼那天，女人看见有人的男朋友送了有人一束花，而且也来见证有人的成就。女人当时很羡慕也有点感伤，因为女人毕业了，却没有一个人到场来支持女人。女人觉得，算了。读书期间，男人和女人到很多地方玩，女人也带男人去见识了外面的世界。
可能日子久了，女人觉得相恋的感觉，没有了。感觉彼此像亲人多过像情人。就在2009年结束那天，因为在外坡工作不顺利的关系，男人决定再回到家乡原本的店工作。女人也没办法，只是觉得男人没有一份稳定的工很不好。就连在一起的４周年纪念，男人和女人也没办法在一起庆祝。原因之一是男人和女人身在不同的地方，也或许是男人已经不太在意如何庆祝自己的周年纪念日。可是，女人却一直在期待会有什么惊喜。
不知从何时开始，女人觉得男人身上的安全感，没有了。女人哭泣时，男人的肩膀也不曾出现。需要帮助时，男人也不会在身边。是女人太贪心吗？女人自己也不知道？还是女人送了男人拖鞋，所以事情才会发展得如此不顺利。因为女人送了男人拖鞋三次了，三次都搞得他们吵得没完没了。女人觉得自己渐渐地比男人更坚强，而男人觉得自己越来越离不开女人。是角色调换了吗？也许是女人独来独往惯了，觉得有没有男人在都好像没有什么分别。也开始觉得跟男人的约定，似乎不可能会实现。因为女人她，等到累了。
直到最近，女人跟男人的感情很不稳定。有一天的下雨天，女人自己一个人出来，到男人放工的时间，雨还在下。女人要男人到她的地方来陪她。可是男人办不到，因为下着雨，男人没有汽车。女人怪男人就连那么近的距离都没能陪自己，不会想办法到女人身边。女人没有生气，女人只是觉得失望，伤心。也因为如此，女人再次跟男人吵起来。
“已经没有在一起的理由了，我们分手吧。。”
这次，女人的一句话，让男人心痛。因为女人说这句话的时候，眼里一滴眼泪都没有。平时的女人，一定会流着泪对男人说这句话。反而这次哭泣的，是男人。女人看在眼里，痛在心里，因为这是男人四年来第一次在女人的面前掉眼泪。男人觉得这次女人是来真的，而且男人并不想离开女人。男人一直想跟女人永远在一起。可是女人却觉得男人给不到自己幸福，也没必要维持一段没有未来的感情。女人觉得这只是在浪费彼此的时间。
男人坚持，男人知道自己没办法离开女人。因为男人的目标全都是为了女人而设下的，没了女人，男人就好像迷失了方向，也不知道自己如此努力是为什么？可是女人却找不到在一起的理由。可是男人却说在一起的理由是因为男人想永远和女人在一起，就算不能天天陪着女人，也要跟女人在一起直到老去。男人说对女人是认真的也不能没有对方，就算多辛苦也不用紧，因为男人说过要给女人幸福快乐的日子，叫女人相信男人。
女人想放弃，女人当司机当累了。不管女人再多么厉害忍耐，她，已经遍体鳞伤。女人不想拖延时间再浪费多四年的青春在男人身上，所以坚持要分手。可是女人却想，已经四年了，好不容易得来的四年，就要如此结束，觉得很不值得。因为女人不想觉得挨来的一切都是白费的。
女人很矛盾，她不知道如何是好？男人苦苦哀求，不要分手，因为男人真的不能没有女人。男人不知何时变得如此软弱如此没有自信。也许是女人看的东西比女人多了。男人不想让女人等，也不想让女人白等，只是质疑金钱真的比两个人在一起来得重要吗？女人问男人，到底还要等到几时？男人要求女人再给他多一点时间，要女人相信他，因为男人现在才20岁，根本证明不了什么？女人却怀疑，能不能把自己的未来放在男人身上。因为女人始终相信自己不可能会嫁给男人。可是男人却迟迟不肯分手，一直叫女人再给男人一个机会。
女人觉得很无奈，只是告诉男人现在不分迟早也会分，这样下去只是在浪费时间。如果男人那么想继续的话就只能保持这段感情。女人也只想让男人好过，不想那样纠缠不清。女人知道说得如此难听男人心里会很难过。可是女人心里只是在想，每次女人伤心时，每次女人想要帮助时，每次女人需要个肩膀时，谁可以陪在女人身边。女人只希望下次借肩膀给自己的不会是另一个男人。就这样，男人的坚持，把故事的句号，标成了省略号。。。
-终-
left;2:31 PM
...S.A.D...
Saturday, February 6, 2010 ♥.
Wondering why I posted Penny Tai photo?
Tell you now...I plan to cut my hair that short...Is it a wise decision?
But I gotta think of so many things...
Cannot clip my hair up...
Imagine if I clip my hair up with short hair...aiks...
Only can use hair band...but will it look like aunty?
I'm so afraid to make this kind of decision...
I gotta think twice...any suggestion??
Heard my besty's friend is breaking up with her bf today...
And heard another couple are unstable too...
Am I the another one to break up?
Because I'm now in an unstable situation too...*sob*
Frankly, we quarrelled these few days...
Continuously...I really have no idea who to tell...
I only can tell my blog...it's really heartache...terrible feel...
But I can't cry in Mc-D right?stupid...
Even the distance is so near, we can't even been together...
Can't you appear in front of me now?
I know it's raining but it has already stopped...
Can't you do something romantic to me?
Am I demanding too much?
I just want to spend my time with you during my holidays...
Because I know you gotta work in Teluk Intan, no time for us to date in KL...
What's wrong with us?I didn't angry, I just heartache, sad, disappointed...
Really, I just need somebody to accompany...
Honestly, even though I'm surrounded by crowd, I still feel empty hearted...
What to do?better than I stay at home...
Wondering how long I've to wait...
All about the "WAIT"...
Should I really wait till the day to come...
I don't know how long I can wait?
Or should I say we have different goal already?
I change?or you...
Who doesn't want to improve?
I've put my 4 years youthhood on you...
I don't want to feel that it has been wasted...
What can I do?I'm clueless now...
Can I put my future on you...
Sometimes I really feel that I got a bright future, just I can't find a way out...
People said:"有人等，才会有人出现..."
Is it true?
So how long I have to wait?10 years?hopefully I won't get an empty box after all...
Valentine's Day is near, my besty ask me what to buy for her bf?
IDK...cause I've no idea too...Me?got nothing for him...
Hopefully he got nothing for me too...Cause I can foresight the day...
Well, 4 years, I know got no surprise for the following days...
Cause we're like family, not couple any more....
Even though you said break up, I can't flow out a drop of tear from my eyes...
Is it the pain of love?
Should I break up?What decision I can make now?
I'm helpless...
Yet, I know I should be tough...
Can I face the single life myself?
I really what to do?
Seriously, I need to cry now...
left;11:53 PM
...One Week With Braces...
♥.
My mouth was like controlling by the braces...
Seriously...ulcer's covering my mouth...ouch...
But now is OK already...
I ate burger benjo yeaterday!!wahahahaha!!!
But honestly, hard to bite la...
CNY is just around the corner...
And my mum ask me to work in the new bistro that my dad open...
I don't want la...so bored there...
Furthermore CNY is coming soon...
I wanna stay home and do my own stuff...
And nowadays CNY greeting cards are more chio than last time...
I've sent 3 CNY greeting cards to Australia fot Yen Yee...
So cute so I bought 3 lo...
Spot another 2 in Summit Point B, so I bought another 2...
Don't know who to give also...
And will visit Chin Er who stay in Sekinchan during CNY...^^
Coz I promised her to visit her during last year holidays but I didn't do it...
So this time must visit her...
And I'm still good here in Teluk Intan...
Still can take nice photo with my mouth closed...XD
Last Sunday used an hour and 30mins drive back from KL to Teluk Intan...
Well..I admit I drive super fast...XD
Love my little swift...hehehe...
Well...nothing much happen here...
Sleep at 4am wake up at 4pm...
OK OK...I'm pig I admit...
But will change my life style now OK?
I slept at 1.30am yesterday leh...
Wake up at 1.30am also...XD
Tomorrow will be another good day...
Ciao ~
left;7:39 PM
Sunday, January 31, 2010 ♥.
Went to PapaRich with Ah Sun this afternoon...
Yeap...we met each other again and went to 1U for Old Dogs...
A damn funny and stupid movie!! guarantee sure laugh!!
Well, not really go 1U for Old Dogs, just for some movies...
Wanna watch Tiger Woohoo but Ah Sun has already watched it...
The Spy Next Door almost full...
So left Old Dogs...
I wanna watch Did You Hear About The Morgans, but it's not showing anymore...*sob*
And I wanna watch Valentine's Day...
Seems so romantic, but I think it's impossible to watch it with him...
So will just watch with other friends...
And there're so many movies will be shown in the cinema on February 11st!!!
How am I going to watch??
Stupid Big Cinema in Teluk Intan!!so damn slow!!!darn it!!
Avatar has already on showing for one month Big Cinema in Teluk Intan only got!!Stupid!!!
Build a stupid slow cinema in Teluk Intan for what?grow spider web meh!!!
Put so many Indian movies for what?
There's already another cinema in Teluk Intan just for Indian movies!!
Skip Indian movies please...duh!!!!
Well, back to 1U...
So many people are watching the show...rarely...give round applause some more!
Got some peh peh M'sia artist come also got not much people...*shaking head*
And both of us successfully come back home with empty hand!!!
WooHoo!!! surprisingly!!!
But I did buy the wheat grass drink back home for CNY...
So damn cheap!RM1 / bottle...how can I miss that!!
See, I've already finished one just now!!I bought 48 bottles home!!XD
And just now went to Murni for MEE RAJA!!!YUMMY YUMMY!!
I still can chew but not so comfortable to chew lo...
Murni in SS2 is going to move to another place...
Because the MBPJ not allow them to set more than 20 tables outside...
Well, if you've been there you'll know how crowded there is...
The table can set from the head to the tail...
But just now only outside the shop...pity...
Never mind, if the food are tasty no matter how far you go we'll still find you!!Teehee!!
And this is how M'sia's drivers drive...
Still red light for turning right but behind got a lorry and a Suzuki Swift drive in front of me and try to make a U-Turn...
Fuyoh!!!M'sia Boleh!!
Not jam at all, why you wanna drive like that?rush like that meh?
If yes put double signal la dude!=.="
Hmm...I think I'm much more better than them!
I drive fierce, but not without follow the rules...right?XD
And I'm going back to Teluk Intan tomorrow...
Will not blog everyday but will try my best to update once I got chaces...
Nitez all!!ciao ~
[ps: heard some, ahhemmm...."noise" from my sister room just now. XD]
left;1:18 AM
